IUI X 2

Interuterine Insemination. The plan was to call on my cycle day 1 and go to Boston for baseline bloodwork and ultrasound. If everything looked okay we would get the call to start taking clomid cylce day 3 for 5 days. During those 5 days we would have to go in for more bloodwork and ultrasounds. We got the call that it was time to take our “trigger shot” and then in 36 hours we would come in for the insemination. Going in for the insemination I didn’t know what to expect, what I definitely didn’t expect was after Dave went in to give his semen sample they kicked him out. Dave had to wait in the car while I walked in alone. I understand why but that doesn’t make it okay, we are BOTH trying to conceive and yet EVERY appointment he is left sitting in the car while I go in. FREAKING SUCKS!

Everything went great and we were hopeful.

Now the dreadful TWO WEEK WAIT. I would have to go for a blood pregnancy test 14 days later to see if it worked. Getting that call that it didn’t take damn near killed me, I got the call coming out of Crate and Barrel and I dropped to my knees. I cried so hard I couldn’t breathe. WHY? Why was this one so damn hard to hear, we’ve had years of negatives but to hear a nurse call and deliver the news it felt like a knife went through my heart. We were very hopeful, maybe too hopeful.

Well guess what happens after that, you don’t have time to grieve and feel sad because you need to get up and fight again. Don’t get me wrong you can take a break in between cycles but I didn’t want to waste anymore time. Cycle Day 1 comes and we start all over again.

Same process as the first except this time I made sure to guard my heart.

Second one doesn’t take. On to the follow-up. I felt as if I wasted more time but if we hadn’t done the procedures we would have always thought “what if”.