Ectopic Pregnancy

Our experience devastated me. I felt as if I was robbed of all the joys/experiences of your first time pregnancy and I will never get those back. I was given an option at this point to do the laparoscopic surgery or to take methotrexate which is a drug used in chemo that stops cell growth. I chose to do the methotrexate after much research, I was worried with the surgery I may get scar tissue or end up possibly losing a tube. The methotrexate sucked, I felt like shit and after my blood work came back it showed my numbers were still rising. Still in denial, you have thoughts like maybe it was a mistake? maybe it’s not an ectopic? Quickly you are smacked back with reality and told we would have to go back to the hospital for whole other round of methotrexate.

I was left emotionally destroyed, the blood work continued for a few weeks waiting for my numbers to return to zero. We were told we would have to wait at least 3 months before trying again, you need to make sure the medication is completely out of your system before pregnancy. Another 3 months killed to hear but to be completely honest looking back we definitely needed that time to heal.